Hi Downdude,
I just wanted to sympathize with you. It sounds like things are really tough right now. I don't have anything to offer in the way of advice I just wanted to let you know that I read your post and I care about what you are going through. When I couldn't afford my meds and psych care i went through the county and they helped tremendously. Is there anyway you can find a ride to the nearest place? I know for me too that my mental health is of utmost importance, more important than paying certain bills because without my mental health I am unemployable. Keep reaching out here, you've taken a great first step.
Love and Hugs,
Tara