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Originally Posted by elliemay
Although it may seem counter-intuitive, the once a week therapy I think is a good idea. It keeps the heavy stuff from being "in your face" all the time and can help solidify the idea that your therapist is always there (even if you can't see him). It also gives your brain plenty of time to incorporate a session and work on it - even though you are doing other things.
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I think you're right, for sure.
During the CSA crap, it was all so NEW....the telling, the feelings, etc. It was overwhelming, and I didn't have the coping skills or the trust/security in T being there to get through more than a few days.
Now...I do know T is there. I have coping skills. And I honestly don't think I *can* deal with the mom stuff for more than an hour a week. I think it's going to take a LOT of processing between sessions before I am ready to delve into it again.
It's funny how things work out. I *needed* T twice a week during the CSA stuff. And I was able to see him twice a week. And I guess all of that brought me to the point where I can deal with this stuff, in the limited time that I have. And the limited time is actually BETTER.
Really, I can't shake the very young wish that it would just be different. I want to have a different childhood and I can't and it's almost like dealing with it with T will mean that it can never be changed, ever. Which makes no sense, but does.