the ativan makes me feel so much better sometimes i'm scared to take it. isn't that weird? if i'm on a crying jag it cuts it short. if i can't stop worrying about my future it lets me sleep. i always try to talk myself out of taking it also, because i'm scared to get addicted, or of liking it too much, or of having it lose its effects. I don't know if those are rational fears or not though, given how much I'm taking.

i still only take one (.5 mg) or once in a while two per day, and only really for the past 3 weeks or so.

i guess i'm looking for reassurance. not that you should necessarily indulge me.

thea