Ah yes, this is something I'm trying to be so careful not to do; over analyzing my situation and making bigger of it than what it really is. Such a thing will only drag you further down. Right now, I believe what's with me is too much extra time on my hands; I'm unemployed at the moment and this extra time seems to make me want to dwell on negatives. I think things will be better once I find work or a good volunteer opportunity.