Hey guys,

I think this sits here if not Mods know best

I have a CPN- Community Psychiatric Nurse I use to see him fortnightly. However I last saw him a month ago. I saw him today. He has a new role within his job and this means I do not see him as much as I should. He has said he wants to keep me on as his case which means a lot to me as I really like him.

But.... Today when he was talking to me before we closed for the session, he said something about bringing in a new nurse for a session to change over and bring that nurse up to speed on the case. He then said for his other cases. He wants to follow me through. I think he is gonna ditch me. I just sat there and nodded..... I am such an idiot why didn't I ask him if he means me??? I have only been seeing him since late January and have only had 7 sessions with him. He spoke about how I am not hypo-manic today but have been recently and he was concerned about the side effects I was having. Said he was not concerned about the risk I pose to myself as I seem to not have any unwanted ideas etc. Which is true, I have felt suicidal but managed to ignore them.

My question is what do I do if I call up to speak to him and he isn't there? He has said I can call him any time and I have numbers I can call. I have had to call twice in March as I was suicidal and was close to s/h'in. But now I don't know if he will even be in the building as he is job sharing for his new role.

Am I being ditched by my CPN soon?

I am angry at myself, I am so upset just wanna cry I am so pathetic