I feel like he will think I am a loser if I call and ask him what do I do if I need to call him and he isn't there!! Am I being too needy???

I am upset with myself cause I promised myself I would never ever get needy and pathetic again. It took me a few months to get over my ex Counsellor who I had for 7 months.

My Friend thinks I am better and that he is probably doing this cause I don't need him as much as I did in January. But the truth is..... I amn't I have pretended to be ok cause I want to go back to work. I want him to think I am ok and that everything is fine, I dont want him to see the real me. I am struggling with things and I just don't know how to say it!!

I feel like I am a loser for being like this. I just don't know why I can't say what is happening. I wish i could talk but I can't