Glad you feel a bit better talking about it here.

I didn't occur to me to write how I was feeling. My T actually suggested it! I have been with her awhile now, so I don't do that as often. But I still sometimes do it with my BF, when I just can't seem to get out the words.

We all want to be OK. But I think the key thing is just to try to focus on one day (or minute) at a time.

Keep talking if it will help.