My boyfriend is going away for a conference this weekend, I previously mentioned I wanted to go with him and his response was "maybe" Today he told me he is going and did not mention anything about wanting me to go with him. This has me very sad that he had no desire for me to go with him, it makes me feel like he has limited interest in me and clearly does not want to spend as much time with me as I do with him. I really really hate how relationships make me feel and I really really wish I was content not to be in a relationship like I used to be. I hate how I get so wrapped up in a guy and I feel like I am starting to get too attached. I have no idea where this relationship will go but I want it to last-I just sometimes wonder if he feels the same about me. I am terrible at judging guys adn thought my ex was starting to fall in love with me (based on the way he acted and the effort he put in, but it turned out that he was unhappy and soon broke up with me) so most of the time I have no idea what my current boyfriend feels about the relationship despite his comment yesterday that "I have the uncanny ability to read his mind". I realize that it is only a weekend but I see so little of him now that it just makes me sad that he does not want to spend as much time with me as I do with him. I wish I was not this way-life is hard enough being bi-polar but trying to have a healthy adult relationship is scary. I just want to be in a relationship that is healthy and the guy puts in the effort that I need him to, am I asking too much?