I have been dealing with the same thing for YEARS and only recently have I been able to let go of some of it. When I say years, I am talking 23+ years. I have been in and out of therapy and it's been such a struggle, but I have found a T that has really helped me deal with some of it. I think you will deal with it in your own time, when you are ready. No one can say how long it will take because it's for each individual person to deal with on their own, but know that you should never give up. I have hope for you! *hugs*