thank you kathleen,
yes, i forgave them of course. i just finally had to choose not to be around that type of thinking. i felt so sorry for several of the younger girls in that family that were left to fend with the ravages of MI on their own because no one would allow them to get any professional help. one was even subjected to an exorcism. but even so, i still wish them all well.

my sister (in another state) belongs to a church that actually has support groups for people with bipolar disorder and depression. i think it's called Hope Church. she mentioned that they are online too but i don't want to "just" attend an online church. for now, i listen to gospel music on youtube, and read my Bible, and read devotionals online.

i'm so glad to hear you had a positive experience with your church when you were in the hospital. and the hospital chaplain! as i mentioned, to me personally, faith goes a very long way in helping to cope through the rough days and i would really like to have the support of a church as well as here of course, and my pdoc and IRL support group. it's just different because it's about being close to our Father. that must've been a comfort to you that they cared so much.

i'd like to thank everybody for their responses and support. that means a whole lot to me. i'm really not criticizing the clergy, or church members who think in such awful terms towards MI, i'm just saddened. our souls need the same nurturing as someone with a physical ailment.