Thanks PoetGirl,

Your post means a lot to me. I guess when I write everything that has happened/gonna happen in my life down I have a wee bit to sort out huh!! I didn't think I was that bogged down but maybe it's just all sitting in my head sizzling and boiling and bubbling up until I explode.... but I won't explode as I don't want to hurt people. When my Great Uncle dies my Mum is gonna be devastated. He is her last remaining relative from the older Generation. I haven't seen him in about 4 years as he has been so ill and has dementia and reminds me of my Granda who I loved and miss so much... he died 6 years ago. Life is just hard sometimes and I forget people can't see into my head nor sense what is happening in my world