Biography
I am a 50 year old professional loser, living at home with my older brother and invalid mother. I've failed in virtually every area of my life (friends, money, love, etc). For the most part, I feel either rejected or forgotten by everyone I've ever know. I have trouble making and keeping friends. I've been divorced since 2001 and I have no children. I lack direction and struggle to figure out what my next occupation/job/vocation should be. I feel lonely virtually all the time, even when people are present. Real or imagined, I feel worthless and unlovable - yet I keep going on, with the faint and flickering hope that my life will somehow get better. That said, my life has passed me by and this is probably as good as it gets for me. Whenever good has arrived in my life, I've always managed to sabotage it. I'm constantly consumed with the regrets of my past mistakes and how they continue to effect my life today. To me, true happiness doesn't necessarily need to be a constant state of bliss. Instead, I'd be content with simply having a few things in my life to look forward to.

Location
NYC area

Interests
baseball, film, art, TV, aviation, psychology/self-help

Occupation
formerly an art director, now completely lost and unemployed