Wow!!!! That anxiety is definitely coming across. I think I would be a bit anxious too in that position! Haha... When do you tell him? It's fantastic that you're taking the step to do this. He also sounds rather evolved I am not sure that I have heard of a male T crying before not to mention the typical one....!

Also I think it is wonderful that you're planning to move on to someone in RL WITHOUT invalidating the feelings, just a superb plan. I think most people would struggle at some level with having those feelings and making active plans to kind of look beyond that...

Hope he helps you figure it all out !