I recently found my daughter, who I haven't seen in 20 years. She's 28 now & I understand married last summer. After me & her mother divorced her mother turned her against me. As an 8 y/o my daughter wrote me a letter saying she didn't want to see me anymore. I'm sure orchestrated by her mother. Anyway, I googled her name on a lark and found her address, phone number, and a picture. Apparently she had been involved in some kind of modeling agency & she had her own page on their site.

So now I know what my daughter looks like after all these years. And I know she lives 10 minutes from my house. A month ago I wrote her a letter asking if she would be willing to meet with me. Wherever & whenever she wanted. A public place. With a friend so she'd feel safe. Whatever. I also gave her my cell number if she just wanted to call. Still no response. It's been a month & I have to accept the fact that her no reply IS her response. She still doesn't want me in her life. I miss her so much. I would love to know if she is happy. If her husband treats her ok. I'd love to be a part of her life to whatever degree she'd be comfortable with.

But not yet. My T tells me she may not realize how important a father is in a child's life until she has children of her own. When she sees how important their father is to them. Gives me hope. But it's been a long time. I miss her.