Am I really a delusional stalker? Am I really that bad?

I only e-mail that administrator once in a while while I am blocked. When I'm not blocked I feel no need to e-mail him.

I admit that I lost control when I e-mailed those threats, but does that really equal stalking?

I know the difference between fantasy and reality. Most of my infatuation is harmless fun in my opinion. I just like to imagine he is someone he is not. I know that the real him is not the same as in my mind.

People who e-mail me on a regular basis and who get to know me are not afraid of me. I think sometimes that I exagerate the bad things that I do...maybe to get attention, I dunno, but I don't think I'm as bad as some people here might think I am.

I don't think I'm a stalker for many reasons, one of which is I never keep my thoughts secret. I tell them to everyone. Perhaps my "obsession" is really an obsession for the attention that results from people thinking that I'm obsessed?

I don't think I'm really obsessed with him. No truly. I think I exagerate things so people will pay attention to me.