I understand what you are talking about, googley. Last year I was backing out of my driveway and one of my kittens ran behind me and I ran over her and killed her. I still have a phobia when I back out even though it has been a year.

Talking to your T couldn't hurt. I have talked to my son because he was with me when it happened and he and I both were upset but we can't change history.

(((((googley))))) You will get through this.