Hi, I'm new here. I'm hoping that there are people here that might be able to help me, or if anything, just listen.

I'm 16, but i feel so stressed out. As long as i can remember, i'm always taken care of myself and it doesn't seem like anybody really cares about me. Not even my parents. My parents never had a good relationship, not once did i ever see them hug or kiss, they were always arguing. And i was always in the middle. I even remember my mom accidently throwing coffee on me when she was aiming at my dad.

When i was 4. When I was 7, almost 8, my mom found somebody else, divorced my dad and we moved out. My dad was a diabetic, and my mom made sure he took care of himself. I had visiting privliges with him, but whenever i was over there, i ended up taking care of him. I could tell if he had a low blood sugar level, and would tell him to check it. Sometimes i had to do it myself. I knew what was too low, and if it was, i would poor him a sugary juice like Sunny D. If i couldn't get his blood sugar up, I called 911. And this was when i was 8 until around 11 when he passed away.

I've also always loved animals, and have been somewhat of a tomboy when i turned 12. I hate pink and purple, and i hate wearing skirts or dresses. My new stepfather was fine with me up until i started developing my own style. He wants a "girl" and he can't accept me for who I am and will yell at me all the time because i won't wear pink, and i am "selfish" because I "won't wear pink for him".

Since then, he never pays any attention to me except to yell at me for whatever stupid reason or to tell me about how hard his childhood was and make me feel sorry for him or to tell me how difficult I am (Oh i'm difficult am I? I stay home, i'm not into drugs, alcohol or sex, what more could a father possible want?!). He has also cussed me out and threatened me.

But on the contrary, he gives me everything i want or ask for. Sometimes I feel like he only does it to keep me around. Because without my 60 something animals that i breed, train and care for, I have nothing keeping me from gathering up my important stuff and leaving.

My mom, although loads better and more tolerable than my stepfather, seems to be anti-social. She isn't involved in my life at all. All she does is read her book, drink and smoke. Nobody does anything for me. If I'm hungry, I feed myself and cook for myself.

I feel so trapped. I won't do anything out of fear that my stepfather will kill or hurt my animals. I'm also scared that he may one day hurt me or my mother. He has horrible patience and I don't trust him at all. He is always putting me and my ideas down, and saying i don't know anything. I've tried talking to my mom, but she won't take me seriously and it's so frusterating. Noboby will listen to me. I just don't know what to do. I took the depression quiz and it said i have moderate depression, i can't believe it.

Somebody please help!