There are some things you need to realize at your young age. It is time for you to grow up & act like an adult. What is the thing about if he wants me in jail, he can have it done because you gave him enough information to be able to do that. It sounds like you have quite a need for drama in your life rather than learning how to just live a normal unassuming life where you are not anowing other people just to get attention.

I married at the age of 22 with someone the age of 23. There were so many issues that I thought would go away as he got older & more responsible. We tolerated each other for many years until I finally got to the point where I got very tired of living with a child. He got to the point where he started going to my pdoc & was hoping for a pill that sould take care of the problems. The thought he refused to realize was that there is no pill that can make your personality grow up or learn how to act acceptable around others. There are no miricals that can fix anyones problems. There may be pills that can help you calm down to the point where therapy with your mind will be able to realize what actions are acceptable to people in the world. There is no point in pushing things that you already know are not working right nor are acceptable to people around you. You need to learn how to just QUIT doing what you know is wrong. It seems for some reason, you seem to have a need to be is a position where you know you are doing something that is not accaptable to some people but just refuse to take the responsibility of your own to stop doing what you already know is wrong.

I see a similar situation with living with a person who always gave excuses for why he did the things he did & the fact was that the actions weren't acceptable to those around him. If you have read my posts, I am having problems, but am realizing that only I can make the changes necessary to make the needed changes for my life to become liveable again. I know it is hard work, & there is nothing that makes it easy......but there is no other way for us to grow up & become responsible adults without offending those around us.

Hopefully there will be meds for you that can make the therapy work better (unlike me who has horrible reactions to the meds). The change you need & want can only happen when you make them work.......& nothing can do it for you. People can say things to reinforce your good behavior (kind of like training dogs). Inappropriate action has to be made known to the dog....they have to know they responded wrong.....& correct actions need to be reinforced & you need to know what is acceptable. It is important for you to listen to those people around who have given you good advice & ways to handle yourself appropriately.

You have been given good advice continually, but without listening & really wanting the changes to happen, it is all up to you & no one can make anything happen other than you. My husband never took responsibility for his actions & he has ended up in a life that he doesn't really want to be in......but it was his choice & no one could make the choices other than him.

You can take the responsibility if you want to.....it is tough, but will happen if you want it to.....people can only say so much then you will only hear the same thing over & over again as is has happened in my marriage until the divorce if finally going through.

Please take the responsibility for your actions that you need to do to get along in the world. Some people enjoy living with drama in their lives & just aren't interested in any changes, but we are all responsible for living the kind of lives we want to live.

You are capable of living the kind of life you talk about wanting....but it is something only you can do.

Take care of yourself....you deserve to have the good life you want,
Debbie