Greenleaves, I've been reading your posts and I'm really hesitant about replying, as you know a little attention is never enough.

I truly know the feeling of wanting attention but your only making yourself sicker. Especially, when others don't reply you get those negative emotions....No one likes me....everyone hates me...I'm so alone....and then you quickly think of something else to post about so people will respond and those feelings will temporarily leave. I don't know you but I do want the best for you I know what it is like to go through that.

Have you ever tried joining a poetry site? Post a poem people will respond it will relieve the urge of wanting attention.

I would say get some help but that may only make things worse...Just Take care of yourself and find a way to get attention in a more positive way.