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Jan 27, 2006, 07:23 AM
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Member Since: Jan 2006
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<font color="purple"> Congratulations on 20 years, Zorah!
That's fantastic hun! One day, I hope to be where you are. Although right now, it's easier for me to think of it day at a time, lol!
I understand what you mean about not beating myself up over relapsing, and I really would follow your advice if only I did just use the once. If I relapse, it seems I almost give up on recovery for a time, and just continue using (I actually hadn't realised that I do this until just now, so...eye-opener for me there.)
How can I go about learning to control that though? If you'll forgive my rambling here, it all seems to happen so quickly if you know what I mean! I'm clean for a while and then I turn my back for a second and realise I'm using again! Does that make sense? I guess I'm just confused right now.
And thank you for giving me something to think about, Zorah. I'll have a think about what my triggers may be - I've recognised that they're there, but I'm not sure right now what they actually ARE.
Thank you so very much hun. 
Love,
Jaye </font>
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