Hello everyone.

I didn't know where to post this, but basically I don't think I'm depressed anymore, yes I do feel very lonely sometmies, to the point where I cry so hard my stomach hurts.

I feel like I'm carrying this pain around with me. And I'm calm with it. In the past, pain used to pull me down. Now, these couple of days, I'm finding strenght in pain.

The issue is, I feel very insecure financially. I'm following my dreams of being an actor and once i got here, I'm told I need to lose weight just a little, for a month or so. That's fine, I can do it.

The thing is I feel very restless and nervous when I don't have a job. or some form of income coming in. I'm spending my savings, which I have sufficient for 1 and half year. But I fear what will i do when that goes away?

I'm scared of the future. I fear that nothing good will happen to me and i'll have to go back. I constantly am under this fear.

I fear nothing will happen, i'll go back, and then I'll be broke. and unmarried.

How do i cope with this? i REALLY REALLY need your help, this is pulling me down and I can't function.