ugh, KC, I would feel devastated. I'm so sorry this is happening The uncertain timing of it all is making it much more stressful too...

I'm so impressed, though, that you've identified how you're feeling (abandoned), and the action urge that goes with it (withdraw from T), and you're trying to act opposite (let T support you). This is something I'm still grappling with and often (especially with T!) I've reacted so quickly and can't slow it down enough to see any of what you've seen for yourself. I hope T validates how difficult this change is for you, and that you and T find other ways to stay connected... Thinking of you