Thank you so much myself. I did not know that those kinds of things were feelings or emotions . . . they are the same thing, right, feelings and emotions? Senses are what leads to feelings and emotions? Is that correct? I'm not sure if I am really in touch with those kinds of things... at least to recognize them. I do know fear but I guess even with that, I don't know what it does or how it makes me feel other than it's not nice. But, "not nice" is a feeling, right? Sorry to sound so ignorant on this whole thing. It almost feels like a high level science class that I am going into without prerequisites.

It is pretty confusing. Perhaps parts are scared white iris? Maybe it is not that you do not want to get better, but the unknown is scary and that leads to resistance? I wish you well in your journey toward healing.