Perna that was wise what you said. Indeed when i worked previously with people i had high self esteem. I was trying to start with girls i remember... But i was not thinking of consequences and responsibility.

I have been to CCNA course and quit it in its last month because of lack of understanding and strangely being bored. I was interested but felt bored maybe because i did not understand things and lacked language skills. When i did not understand something i know i should have asked for help from other people but what interest would they have to help me? I also was seating with one girl and was shy and uncomfortable to ask her for help. If it was man i would comfortably asked. Moreover it was a commuting for 1 hour and i had to wake up at almost 7 A.M. and waking up was not easy because my day regime has changed and i was used to waking up at 1 P.M.

Also after finishing army (that is prior to cource) i continued to fulfill my high school certificate and mostly failed because of reasons above.

Ever since i have no longer belief that i can succeed in education. Same is for driving lessons, only to imagine teacher yells at me and calls me stupid because i did not understand him or was confused. Or even if i get my driving license, what will happen if i bumo into other car? Driver will come out angry, start yelling and i will not understand him or be focused on something else and look like a fool... I don't know. I cannot myself imagine how is it driving for me. If i lack attention then how will i be able to spot road signs? Orientate?