I know... and i am getting quite a lot of support, with GP monitoring, a CPN (who is a substance misuse practitioner) whom i see once a week and i also see my Doc from the Psych hospital as an outpatient.

I've registered myself to do a couple of courses at a college, but i'm staying away from employment at the moment as with becoming homeless soon, i think it'll all be too much for me to be worrying about a job yet. So i really will have a lot on my plate to keep me occupied from sitting around waiting for him.

One thing i forgot to mention is that there is a possibility i am pregnant- i have been bleeding brown horrid discharge for the past 11 days. A urine sample to test this and some swabs have been sent away, but i don't get results til monday. My boyfriend obviously knows about this, and although him pushing me away began a considerable amount of time before all this, do you think it's possible he's pushing me even more away now for fear i might throw another kid at him?

This i would never ever do- it would be the silliest most ridiculous thing i could ever do and it would spoil us completely.. he knows that, but i still feel like he thinks i'll do what the mother of his youngest kid did to him...