hentaywee,
The book is called: The Stranger in the Mirror - Dissociation: the hidden epidemic, by Dr. Marlene Steinberg and Maxine Schnall
http://www.strangerinthemirror.com/questionnaire.html
Check out the link. Welcome to BPD
I can understand your search for answers. It's always nice to meet others here also dealing with E. The E always complicates life in little ways - big ways, depending upon where you are in life. Hope that your sz's are controlled. Best wishes to you!