I know what you mean. I've told people not to worry about me so much when I'm cutting as when I'm not, because I didn't usually cut when I was at my worst. I don't think I really thought about it, but I'm not sure whether I was too scared of what I might do to cut then, or if I just wasn't bothering to try to cope even by cutting, or if I just plain didn't have the energy.

Helga, I hope that your scar goes away, and also that you will feel better soon and not need to cut.