Queen of Wands,

I hope you play safe from here on out. Buy the condoms, keep them with you and remember they do have expiration dates. If the guy refuses to wear one...well you can refuse too! Protect yourself...you deserve to keep yourself safe.

There are anonymous groups out there that deal with sexual issues. I hear they can be very helpful. Talk with your therapist if you can. Maybe some guided exploration can help you understand more about yourself

Remember, the forums are always here for you.