(((((((((((((((((((((((Skittles))))))))))))))))))))))

I have been where you are. I have always worked as well. Since I was 14. With the exception of my brief 2 year marriage to my first husband that is, but other then that, I worked. In December 2004 I had a breakdown, took medical leave from work and fought for months with myself. On one hand I was trying to be the old me. The idependent me, the hardowrking me. The other hand I was fragile, vulnerable and scared. Like I said, it took months for me to get past my pride and admit that I needed help. Not just from my T, but from those arounbd me. I had to admit that I wasnt superwomen, I actually needed my family, my friends and others around me to help me get through what I call the most difficult time in my life.

Once I could accept that fact, face that I needed others, I was able to really change my outlook on things and open my mind up to another world and prespective I have never experieced.

People often dont understand depression. The think you can just "snap" right out of it. OH if it were only that easy. Just try to concentrate on yourself, your needs. Right now, its ok to depend on your BF and family. IT IS OK. We all need to lean sometimes.

Stay strong skittles.


Huggles,

Jen