Thanks guys.

I have a few problems about getting help though. The first is that there are no adults that i trust enough to tell. Second is that I'm afraid they won't take me seriously the same way my mom did and my stepfather will find out and kill me. And then he'll bring me back again to clean up the mess. Plus, this isn't really something i want the whole city/county to know about.

So yes, i've thought about it. I just haven't lost my self control enough to do it. And about the depression, I didn't even know i was depressed. I don't think i have any problems functioning, although there are times when my mind gets totally focused on how to get out of the situation i'm in. It really doesn't help that I live in the city either. I absolutely hate it here. And even worse, the area that i live in is well known for having stalkers and gangs. There's been so many murders here it isn't even funny. I hear a gun shot almost every other day from my neighborhood. We've already had somebody go through my car because my mom left the door unlocked and they even stole the front right hubcap.