I am so sad. T did a really good job of pretending like she cared about me, or liked me, for the past 2 years. It is painful and startling to see the reality is different.

So much of this is tied in with my abandonment stuff and with issues with my mother. So much. I know this could be an opportunity for me to finally work through some of that stuff, but at the same time I am so stung by Ts words and her demeanor towards me that I don't know how I could force myself to go sit in her office again.