Byzantine,
No, I only see my therapist once every 90 day's for med refills. The last two 15 minute appointments were taken up with medication issues. I called an made an appointment to see her this Monday and will discuss it then. Frankly as a musician I am use to working and being in top form at night and in orchestra pits that are pitch black except for your music stand and the lighting of the conductor. But this goes far beyond darkness it is a total aversion to any sunlight. When I see sunlight I literally close my eyes until I find my way into my room. Once my girlfriend leaves for work I pull down the room darkening shades and curtins and try to create as much of dark environment as possible. I have actually put plywood over the window in my music room and even put in a longer header above my door so no light will filter in. I cannot understand this because when I was living in Myrtle Beach several years ago I could not wait to get to the beach with my dog every morning and sat in the sun all day. I really want to get to the bottom of this. It has gone so far that I have checked those towns in Northern Alaska that have the shortest hours of sunlight in the winter and seem drawn to them, even though in summer they have sunlight as musch as 22 hours.
I am one of those people who has a good understanding of my disease of bipolar disorder, panic attacks etc, but his I cannot get a hand on. I think it may be related to my panic attacks as when I do see glimpses of dayligh I react the same way wanting to retreat to my darkened music room or bedroom.

It may be some type of panic oriented attack, but with the day's getting longer it has really become a major problem as all I seem to do is wait for darkness before I can start to function. I sleep well, but just cannot stand any natural outdoor light. It is really off the wall. I am wondering if anyone knows of others who have had this issue?