(((((((((((Zoo))))))))))))

I'm glad T called and said the words you needed to hear. I honestly don't know if I could continue with my T if he was sarcastic with me...I'm trying to imagine it...and I think I would at least need an apology. I hope she apologizes. If she failed to set the boundaries she wanted to set, that is her issue, and NOT yours. The T is honestly the one responsible for the boundaries. If she felt she needed to redraw the lines, there are gentle, compassionate ways to do it. I'm sorry it all happened like it did.

I honestly don't think you've done anything wrong. If T said "please don't call" and you called over and over again, or something like that, then you would have consciously been crossing her boundaries and you would owe HER an apology. It sounds like she wasn't clear, and that is her issue.

I do like that she sounds like she wants to work it out with you. I know your trust must be SO shaken, but something I've learned in therapy is that our T's can make mistakes, we can be hurt, AND the relationship can still be worth repairing, and we can still grow together with our T's. That has been a huge and valuable lesson.

You don't have to decide ANYTHING tonight, or tomorrow, or the next day, or even next week. Even though it's so uncomfortable to be in the gray place of "not knowing", it's okay to sit right there in the discomfort without trying to figure anything out. It's okay to just be where you are for a moment.

Thinking of you and sending lots and lots of love and hugs, sweet friend