I wrote such a long reply and lost it!

I'll summarize...

To me, love is a big, big topic. Probably THE biggest, deepest, most core topic in my therapy. If your T has said she doesn't want to do therapy in e-mail, it makes a lot of sense to me that she would want to wait until session to address it. It doesn't mean that your feelings aren't okay at all...it means she is keeping the boundaries she set.

Saying "noticing your lack of eye contact is a good thing" sounds encouraging and not very deep. Not really "therapy". In my opinion, anyway.

It sounds like you believe it's okay to love her. And I know it is always okay to feel whatever you feel. Always. My T taught me that

Thinking of your, rainbow