I think you answered your own question - how can you love a man like him when he's been so consistently abusive and neglectful to you? Because he's the only person (other than your daughter who is dependent on you) that you have right now. And because you've let yourself grow attached to him for several years. It's understandable that you would feel close and that it would only make the pain worse.

It's also why you have to get away from him, so you can start to grow apart and you can become involved in good, healthy relationships. I'm glad to hear you threw him out, but I am also very worried that you have a pattern of taking him back. You'll need to stay strong for your sake and your daughter's. Maybe get a therapist and join a support group for women in similar positions as yourself. Find some other people to be around and don't allow him back. You need to find the self-confidence and will to do what's right for yourself and carry through. Good luck to ya. I think you can do it.