I am sorry that you are not getting the support and caring that you need, especially at your age. It appears that it would be helpful if you could find a professional to talk to. This does not have to be a therapist per say but as others have suggested it could be a school counselor or someone from the clergy. Please keep yourself safe as it seems from your post you have some concerns about this. If you need someone to talk to please feel free to PM me.
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