I think it's pretty normal to feel anxious before a session and completely drained afterwards although it does sound like your anxiety before a session is quite intense. Have you talked to your t about this? You say you usually feel numb so maybe on some level it feels safer for you to allow yourself to feel some of your feelings just before a t session rather than in the middle of the week when you don't have your t for support. And then you're interpreting those feelings as pre-t anxiety when that might not be completely accurate. Just a thought. I'm glad you're having less anxiety attacks though - I have them as well and they're horrible.