rain i dont think you need to apologise to your T at all your T knows what your issues are and is helping you with them as best she can she said she would rather respond to those questions in person if i remember it doesnt mean she said you cant send her an e-mail with these questions.at least she knows what is going on in your head.your T really cares about you .can you let yourself feel this for even a little.hope your vaca is going well.