I am IM'ing with a guy I met online and once in person. He has always wanted to get together more, but other than that he doesn't really chat about general stuff or reply to emails or messages. All I have to do is mention sex and it seems that he appears out of no where. (FWIW and TMI, I know he'd be good. Oh, the hands on that man! ;-) He knows about my past abuse and says he's understanding, but he always seems to want to know when he can come over, or get together somewhere. He'll ask if I will do it with him and if I want to. It adds pressure in meeting someone. It's hard enough to just meet someone in person for the first time, let alone a second or third knowing what he wants to happen. Why am I IM'ing with him tonight? Last time I felt too much pressure from the thought and possibilty of meeting him again that I just got too stressed. With that and other things happening, I just became withdrawn and felt detached from life. Thanks for letting me vent. I just don't know what to do. It's my own fault this time because I sent him an email last night while under under the influence of liquid euphoria. sigh.