darkrunner, I still don't understand the difference between manipulating a T and getting my needs met. My former T always said I was manipulating her but this one has never said that. She has even told me "you were just trying to get your needs met."

Why don't I wait for my session? Because my feelings are so overwhelming for me that I want her to know them right away. I want to share them with her. I don't feel like I can sit with my feelings. It's especially hard right now because my last session was over 2 weeks ago and I won't see her until next Wednesday because I'm out-of-town.

tree, thank you for writing a long response even though you "lost it". I hate when that happens!! You're right, love is a big issue especially for me. It's scary and maybe I'm tyring to avoid it by emailing my T instead of talking to her directly. I've told her in person that the "child parts" love her but I never said that my whole Self does. It makes me cry to think about it.