Thank you to all who responded. I have been looking up self help articles on coping with getting over an abusive relationship. Trying to get some type of therapy. I really don't want to make this mistake again. I have suffered from depression since I was a young child. My father was very abusive to my mom and all of us kids in every sense of the word. He was a very mean strict southern baptist wannabe preacher. We got beat constantly and were always threatended that we would burn in hell for doing bad things. I was terrified to go to sleep at night. On top of that I use to beg my mom to leave my dad or I would run away. She eventually did and the man whom she met murdered her when I was 14. So i kinda blamed myself. I begged her and begged her to leave and when she finally did for a better life, she was stabbed to death. I lost my best friend. I was suicidal for a while. I became pregnant 2 months later. I felt like god took any mom and but gave me someone else to love and that would love me unconditionally. My first daughter helped save my life. I have even lost contact with her. I need to try to locate her....That's another story. It's a struggle just to get throught the work day, but at least I'm busy and it helps somewhat take my mind off of my problems. When I go home it's hard,because I have no contact with anyone but my daughter. So I focus on her and spending time with her. Always letting her know how much she is loved. My mom was very affectionate and caring and I'm the same way. So is my daughter, she is my heart. Without her I don't think I would have the strength that I sometimes do. I have to to take care of her. Money is really tight, right now and I have a hard time sleeping worring about how am I going to pay this, how am I going to afford that. Him living with me has put me in debt and I have no one to blame but myself. I feel stupid. Never again. Me and my daughter deserve better. I heard it was gets worse before it gets better. I hope so. I am so lonely. I wish that I had some friends to talk to . i need so type of support from an adult perspective. That's why I researched the internet and found this place .....Thanks you for all the advice. It really helps.