I have been trying to keep myself distracted this week, doing something each day to get through the time... (did I tell you? T is out of town till Monday)

I had an invite to a dinner.

I also had an invite to a get together to discuss starting something fun.

I tried. I was able to get my manicure (one day) pedicure (another day) and my hair cut (another day)...

I didn't go... to anything, any night.

I pushed myself to go out today... was terribly late to one thing (they were leaving as I arrived.) I came home. I wanted to go out and eat well not a meal,but desert and drink. And I rationalized how there wouldn't be room for just one on Saturday night, the restaurant's crowded and and and... That's what I do. I didn't go.

So here I am again, and posting about it which I don't always do (not compared to how often it happens)... maybe by posting... I can change things? Big sigh.