I KNOW I am pushing too much, but I don't know how to stop. Here is part of it: she said I was damaging the relationship when I was just doing what she told me it was OK to do. So, why should I worry now about what is too much for her? also there is a sort of frantic feeling that it can't end like this, at the same time that I feel if it IS going to end now, go out in a blaze of glory.