I have to take my daughter to a school concert in 10 minutes. I just now managed to quit crying. I scared my kids, I know they thought I was going to have a complete break down. I'm glad they can see me functioning through that and calming down.

I cannot imagine going to see T next week, and I cannot imagine never seeing her again. I do not want it to end this way, and I'm afraid to let her hurt me any more.