Hello,
I am trying so hard to trust my b/f but something keeps putting these negative thoughts in my head. We have had long talks about my not trusting him and we have gone over and over our problems and things are fine for a little while then I start not trusting again, I know I need serious help but I can't shake these feelings I get....something as little as ...I seen he was online today, I was listening to my music on the computer and cleaning house so I didn't think anything of it. usually if he is online and not on computer it will show he is idle.However today I seen he was online for almost 2 hrs. I kept checking to see if he left me a message but he didn't , so tonight--when I talked to him on the phone I asked him how his day was & what he did after he got home from work...he said" dishes, watched some tv, took a nap but never mentioned anything about being online" I then say, yeah I saw you was online but he said he wasn't ....he got real upset and said " if he is being accused he might as well do it" we had very little conversation and then hung up...If he had mentioned he was online and looking up something it wouldn't have been so bad lol....but he didn't say anything at all about being online....I feel like such a fool for not trusting him but I don't know how to stop the cycle. he met me online so maybe that is why I'm like that I don't know...does anyone have any suggestions on how I can trust again? ..please help ..thanks