Saw my MD today. Thanks to my PTSD, my blood pressure is high. All I know is that I am angry almost all of the time. I requested a sedative but the MD insists that I see a psychiatrist and have them prescribe an anti-depressant. I don't have a good track record with anti-depressants because the side effects are worse than the benefits. The MD said that sedatives are addictive and will not prescribe one. I dread seeing another therapist. Therapy has not helped one bit; I have had many and tried different modalities. It fact, I think it has hurt me more than it has helped. Lately, I have lost hope. I have no money to pay for a therapist. I am more angry and bitter than ever and have been yelling at myself all night.