Every day is a nightmare. I'm living a nightmare. My son, as much as I love him, makes my life a living hell. I'm at the end of my rope. I'm dreading tomorrow. And the day after that. And the day after that. and so on.

For the first time in a long time, tonight I was thinking about just checking out. I have no strength left. And it keeps getting worse every day. I can't handle my life anymore. I am so incredibly overwhelmed. It's all too much.

I need a break from all this. I would love to check myself in, but I can't, I don't have anyone to watch the kids anymore. My pdoc said she'll call DHS if that happened. And she said things would get very ugly then.

Please make it stop!