I wish I had an easy answer for you, but I don't. I do wonder, though, if there were something like a depression support group that might have resources or if your T can, instead of helping you discover ways things would be horrible for you, could help you think or resources and solutions for your problem. Or maybe you can do outpatient therapy for the full day and then come home with your kids. It would be like work hours but treatment instead and you'd be on leave from work. Maybe there are resources for your kid, too. I bet he is acting out for some reason that he might need to address. Then you could both be a bit happier.All easier said than done, but I hope you do find some relief.