Thank you both. I don't work, I stay at home with the kids. And every day when my 8 year old gets home from school, all hell breaks loose.

He's already seeing the school psychologist and a "regular" psychologist, and it's not helping. He has an appt with a psychiatrist next tuesday, and as horrible as it sounds, I hope they put him on medication, so we can all be happier again. I want my sweet baby back.

I do have a babysitter who watches them when I have appts, but I feel guilty just taking time off for myself. It's something I just can't do. My t says I need to work on that.

Right now, I would love to just go to a hotel for a night. Just get away. But my babysitter doesn't do overnights.