((zoo)) I have read and I've been thinking of you. You have having SO much pain

I'm glad that she said this, because in reading your posts, I kept having the feeling that your T made a shift in her part of therapy and that it wasn't so hot that she handled it the way she did. Her telling you that she was going to have to stop treating you as fragile was about her, but it sounded like it was about you. It would have sounded that way to me too! I think that she was thinking 'out loud' (via email) and that she could have made some changes in your therapy without causing all of this turmoil. I even think it was her responsibility to handle this completely on her own, this awareness of hers that she wanted to make a change in how she resonds to you sometimes because she wanted to help you with this and that she felt what she was doing wasn't helping (my view of what happened). I think it just came out wrong, but her intentions come from a caring place, where she cares about you getting what you need in a way that is most helpful to you.

She can help you and her get through this so you feel better.